sweet disposition.

today is may 3rd.
i could tell you everything that happened exactly a month ago today, but i won't, because that would just be unnecessary. all i really need to say is...who knew so much could happen in a month?

and i would like to continue a list i started last night.

having been inspired by 2 of my best friends, i would like to make an official list of things that make me happy. here we go:

☼ sunshine.

☼ music.

☼ friends.

☼ bread.

☼ learning.

☼ teaching.

☼ understanding.

☼ laughing.

☼ dr. pepper.

☼ swinging.

☼ daisies.

☼ the beach.

☼ babies.

☼ helping.

☼ red.

☼ dresses.

☼ owls.

☼ california.

☼ choir.

☼ candy.

☼ the beatles.

☼ blink.

☼ cleaning.

☼ cats.

☼ driving at night.

☼ manhattan beach.

☼ shopping.

☼ love.

☼ the future.

☼ God.

☼ full names.

☼ will & grace.

☼ nail polish.

☼ jewelry given to you by someone you love.

☼ photographs.

☼ lyrics.

☼ mr. padilla.

☼ sunshine.

sunshine was necessary to say twice, because a day with sunshine can never be completely sad.

i had to read a poem for english today, and we were supposed to write a structured essay about it. the reading and the writing wasn't hard...it was when the structure rule came in that i failed. i literally ended up writing my thoughts down. the poem was about this man waiting for something to happen in his life. and it made me mad. you can't just wait for something to happen, or nothing's ever gonna be good enough. if you need something meaningful to happen, it's gonna have to come from within yourself.

just so you all know. that's what i've discovered, at least.

p.s. [just some of montreal for you] 

send out your ray of sunshine.

i really need to figure out a technique for this whole blogging thing. i just can't decide whether i want my posts to be fun or meaningful. i guess i could do both? maybe i'll just make observations, and sometimes they'll be meaningful.
anyway, i recently wrote a post about college. and it was a typical cheesy one but now i actually think i have more meaningful observations about it.
screw college.
honestly, the ucs seem to just pick random people out of a pile and send them an acceptance letter.
not that the people who got in don't deserve it because i know how hard they've worked and they totally do deserve it. it's just the people that don't get in that make me angry at the ucs. but i guess that's the whole problem...not everyone can get in.
but it just doesn't seem fair to me.
literally one grade can kick someone out of their top college.
ok i'm done with this.
instead, i'm focusing on being positive right now.
honestly, what is the point in being negative? THERE IS NO POINT.
what's the point in judging people before you know them? same answer.
there are so many meaningless things we do that do nothing but bring us down.
the real question is, why do we do it?
for entertainment?
as an attempt at happiness?
who even knows.
but i also realized that the best attitude to have right now is a non-overanalyzing one.
that was not grammatically correct at all, but it made sense to me.

i would also just like to make a formal apology to jacob&alex for not being at our reunion lunch today. i miss you both and i ate jersey mike's at home in honor of you.
and jacob, good luck with tomorrow's struggles.

everyone come to the choir concert tomorrow @ 7pm, lanterman auditorium!

i'm obsessed with red right now. after all, it is the color of strawberry fields. I am SO obsessed, in fact, that it's replacing pink as my favorite color. that's intense, because it hasn't changed since about 5th grade.

also, i'm excited for backwards happening on saturday with WODDY my love. pictures to come.

here's one of the pictures that i promised would come from 2 posts ago. the one about my 2 favorite babies leaving town.

oliver in our laps & amelie peeking from behind kate's head tehe.

the other promised picture about the miracle will come as soon as jac7k gets his pictures developed.

we need one with fern too though. maybe i'll get that one tomorrow or friday.

i love adventuring. all you have to do is find the right people to adventure with.

finally, if you ever need inspiration/encouragement/advice for anything, just listen to the beatles. they are literally perfection.

p.s. this song reminds me of summertime. ew and since when does youtube have commercials? boo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VHFUXH4PP5c

p.p.s. this is my friend/old babysitter hillary's blog. it's really fun for girls!

http://www.paperdollgirls.blogspot.com/

every little thing.

okay, so first of all, i have no idea what i'm doing. so we'll see how this whole blog thing turns out. the thing is, i love to write, but i can only write about feelings. i hate basically any english assignment unless it's poetry, which really isn't even assigned anymore. lately, my mind just cannot stay focused on one idea for longer than 5 seconds. so some very schizophrenic posts can be expected from me. however, it's 3:44 am at the moment, and i have to be 
awake in about 4 hours.

so i must sleep.

good day sunshine.

[photo credz].