a distrustful disposition.

i literally just started reading the fall, and only got to page 4 before i had a thought i just had to write down.

the novel starts in a bar, with what feels like almost a stream of consciousness type of writing.

but not exactly, because the character is talking, not just thinking.

he goes off on the disposition of the bar's host, and how his lack of ability to communicate with so many of his customers has created a distrust for the world in him.

with almost a page and a half of reflecting on the character of the host, the speaker proceeds to say:

"mind you, i am not judging him."

because i got this book from the library, there's already some writing in it and the word judging is highlighted and above it, it says:

ironic (he is)

if i hadn't had this copy of this book i may not have paused to think about that sentence.

words very similar to those come out of my mouth more times than i can guess at.

i will start with an observation about someone i do not know, and proceed to make connections which lead to assumptions. not necessarily bad or good; just assumptions.

but this is always the question that comes to mind:

are assumptions bad simply because they are assumptions?

or can they be a good exercise for my mind in wariness and making connections?

maybe the key is to not let those presumptions turn into beliefs.

maybe suppositions can help shape our mind while beliefs become a part of it.

so anyway, thank you lawrence, for bringing me a thought i might not have had if you hadn't taken the time to write yours down.

(he wrote his name in the front of the book)
which reminds me, i recently stumbled upon [this website], and i think it's so cool.

have a lovely rest of your saturday!

xo.

(and i would like to announce that i am now attempting to be a vegetarian thanks to 'food inc.' wonderful)

ladies of the world.

i just finished 'classy' by derek blasberg and i must say, although a little shallow, (okay, a lot) i actually did learn a thing or two.

i recommend it for a fun read that doesn't require your full attention but counts as more than a magazine article.

so thank you, mr. blasberg.

but you never really cleared up my only real question when starting this book...are you gay or are you just a straight man who prides himself on his knowledge of women's fashion?

i would enjoy a sequal that addresses my question.

xo. 

 [photo credz].

pennies from heaven.

my very own christmas wishlist (everyone's doing it):

1. [the prettiest earrings]

2. [the drunkard's walk]: how randomness rules our lives, by leonard mlodinow

3. [those sparkly pink toms]

 4. some perfect little [crate and barrel ornaments]

5. [an adorable dove dress] from modcloth

6. [eiffel tower tights]

 

 7. [a puzzle] for christmas day

8. [musical crayons]

9. [a little bit of the beach] for your hand

10. if only this [diane von furtsenberg dress] wasn't $200

11. [non-toxic red nail polish]

12. this kitten

 

 [photo credz].

 (p.s. take note that this isn't my actual christmas list because my actual one doesn't include a $150 puzzle and a kitten, etc...although i'm always down for a kitten or two)

où est la bibliothèque?

"somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known."

~dr. carl sagan~

p.s. t trap + sleepover with caroline this weekend...what else could i ask for?!
[new favorite]

[photo credz].

reading to kids.

every tuesday and thursday at lmu, the school holds something called convo.

volunteer organizations, leadership opportunities, school events, etc., set up tables towards the center of the school, and it's kind of what you do here on tuesdays and thursdays between the hours of 12 & 2.

a couple of weeks ago, i put my name on the email list for an organization called

[reading to kids].

  i then signed up for the october club and on this past saturday, woke up at

8am

(if you know me, you know this is a big deal)

and read to cute little kids. it was such a lovely way to start my morning.

i included the link because anyone in the l.a. area who's over 18 is invited to volunteer. it wasn't a huge commitment - just a couple hours - and there are about a dozen schools that the clubs take place at so there are a lot of location options.
also, i love the rain.
you better rain for me, seattle!
sorry i haven't blogged in forever.
here's a little [happiness] for you.

p.s.

catch it.

[photo credz].

memories of a life that wasn't mine anymore.

"on the one hand it wasn't very likely. on the other, it was perfectly natural."

do me a favor and read this book. it was very mind opening, and not too lengthy. it made me realize that for the last year, maybe all i've been doing is 'seeing if there's any way out of the inevitable.' and camus answers the obvious...only temporarily. read the book and you might be able to figure out what i'm talking about. i might even start reading again.

p.s.

i feel like a lot of people...[sleep to dream]

& i love meg sanborn.

[photo credz].