let the weight of the world drift away instead.

first of all, i'm sorry for being a flaky blogger. it's been almost 2 weeks since i updated. life's been too complicated to write it down.

but a lot has been happening...

catalina,

PRAMA '10,

& senior salute.

next, i thought i'd include this face. it made me laugh...a lot.

ALSO, meet doc. i call him D because he's cool and he sleeps like this:

and finally, i'm going to hawaii in 2 weeks. i'm dying of excitement...i get to return to this:

i even went online bathing suit shopping tonight.

i also thought i'd share my 2 recent insightful fortunes:

life is not a problem to be solved but rather a mystery to be lived.

(my lucky numbers are 38, 42, 47, 48, 49 & 50. and my lucky month is september. also my month of birth...coincidence? i think not.)

don't look back, always look ahead.

i finally bought j. ritter's new album.

[favorite song so far]

(i could only find the live version, sorreh. the recording's much slower)

i'm also currently re-obsessed (not a word. i don't care) with the oc & greek. the oc, season 3 is my senior year in a dramatized t.v. show, and greek is getting me excited for college.

and we're signing yearbooks. i hate it. it's all too final and stressful. never change, have a great summer!  i bet you've gotten that one before.

and too the sneaky narwhal, i think grammer is very important. your rude.
(catch it)


xo to all.

live without thinking the world is staring at you.

"it's like admitting you ate the cookie in the cookie jar but trying to make it cute so that you dont get in trouble. like an 'aw shucks' smile":


:3
woody buck


"italian tomato and basil: 11.29. parking for one hour underneath cpk: 5:00. lolcats, lolbears, lollerskates, naw brah: priceless. there are some things money can buy, but for everything else there's a reunion."
rishi menon


"nahhh cece you're my homedroid."
jack gilbert


"hahaha jk i love you chichi. especially when i am mean to you. it makes my heart feel good."
jeff facer


"you look like you were attacked by a panther."
kate van amringe


"i made like 5 friends already.....they're all lizards."
maddy mccollum




i just thought i'd share a little bit of what makes my life bright every day.
i love you friends.


and SPEAKING OF LOVE, i have been thinking about it lately.


WHAT IS LOVE?
how can you know when you really love someone? how do i know that when i tell someone i love him or her, that i'm not lying? and this is just platonic love...i haven't even really begun to concern myself with 'in love' love. that's so foreign to me that i've decided not to even worry about it until it becomes part of my own experience. this reminds me that i really just want to interview people. i want to ask teenagers in love to describe it to me, versus adults who have had a marriage last, ones who have fallen out of love, experienced unrequited love, etc. i also want to ask an old person how it feels to have most of your life over...but first, i'll need to figure out a way to phrase the question more kindly.


"Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence."
Eric Fromm

(kate and i found this picture last night...we're obsessed, so i thought i'd share)

p.s. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq7DGPYzAvg

oh, and i love paige riley.

[photo credz].

paint the silence.

you know something terrible i realized yesterday? i'm afraid of being happy. and, because of this, i have spent the past 2 years of my life spending happy times feeling scared, and sad times feeling sad, which might not even be any worse than scared. i waste all my happy being scared! scared of being sad. at a certain point, you have to stop preparing yourself  and start enjoying yourself. like that better safe than sorry saying? maybe not always true. there are certain situations when it is true. like putting on your seat belt in a car, for example. always do that. but i would just like to warn everyone that maybe you're not always better safe than sorry. one way to enjoy your life is to be sorry sometimes, and spend the rest of the time living for the moment. and hopefully, that'll make happier moments even happier.


also, BACKWARDS WAS LAST WEEKEND.


picture time (i'll just put up a few because they're all on facebook anyway):

pre-dance hur:

the group:

woody, my love:

and finally, i have a picture that goes with my 9 observations post from forever ago. for the miracle one:

today, i realized that in the process of finding who i am for the past year, i've also lost a lot of who i am too. and i think that i've lost a lot of the more meaningful parts. so i'm going to be working on being a better person in the time to come. maybe we all should. why not, after all?

but for now,

goodnight moon.

p.s.

i couldn't find it on youtube, except for in a video of ryan and marissa making out (and i thought that would be awkward), but 'paint the silence' by south is my current favorite song. look it up.

j'adore la vie.

i feel like i should be able to write a really deep blog post right now. i know one's coming, but i just can't do it right now. i also feel like all i have done for the past 2 days is watch the oc. literally, though. i need to come back to life. but, for today, i'll just do this...

9 shallow observations for the day, with pictures to go along with each one:

1. i want to be summer roberts. teen idol anyone? hey friends, you are always welcome to call me summer. just so you know.

[photo credz].

2. i have a new obsession with java chip frappuccino ice cream - the little ones that come with spoons, courtesy of jack gilbert. thank you for sparking that obsession.

 

[photo credz].

3. hugs make me so happy. i want to become a really good hugger. i'll start practicing tomorrow.

[photo credz].

4. i have this new life goal to get trapped in the mall overnight. with my best friends. it's nbd really. but i can promise that late night adventures with best friends are the best.

5. i still have jacob's shirt. and i don't plan on giving it back until forced. thanks jacob!

6. i'm a little bit in love with this dress. i want to own it.

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?isProduct=true&wishlist=true&color=009&navAction=jump&parentid=W_APP_DRESSES&id=17982216

7. i've experienced a miracle. how cool is that?

(this picture is coming soon)

8. my 2 favorite babies are leaving town this weekend. i love the facers. :(

(again, picture to come)

9. i got into ucsc and uc merced today! i don't actually want to go to either of those places...but hey, i got into more college. and it means i get to stay in cali. :) i love you, beach.

 

[photo credz].

goodnight. xo readers.

ps

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8AWFf7EAc4

count your blessings.

dear world,

i’m making a goal for myself, and THAT is to update my blog every day. beautiful blogs inspire me. and i want mine to be beautiful. but let’s be honest…it’s no fun having a beautiful blog if it also only has 1 post a month. so i’ll be working on it’s beauty with my 1 post a day…hopefully.

so this counts as today’s post. lame, i know…but it’s the best i can do for tonight. and i have 2 observations for the world.

#1) ryan reynolds is perfection.

#2) i’m in love with seth cohen. nbd.

that is all.

oc anyone?

p.s. count your blessings. it helps.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1nIF_FWWOU

[photo credz].