you know something terrible i realized yesterday? i'm afraid of being happy. and, because of this, i have spent the past 2 years of my life spending happy times feeling scared, and sad times feeling sad, which might not even be any worse than scared. i waste all my happy being scared! scared of being sad. at a certain point, you have to stop preparing yourself and start enjoying yourself. like that better safe than sorry saying? maybe not always true. there are certain situations when it is true. like putting on your seat belt in a car, for example. always do that. but i would just like to warn everyone that maybe you're not always better safe than sorry. one way to enjoy your life is to be sorry sometimes, and spend the rest of the time living for the moment. and hopefully, that'll make happier moments even happier.
also, BACKWARDS WAS LAST WEEKEND.
picture time (i'll just put up a few because they're all on facebook anyway):
pre-dance hur:
the group:
woody, my love:
and finally, i have a picture that goes with my 9 observations post from forever ago. for the miracle one:
today, i realized that in the process of finding who i am for the past year, i've also lost a lot of who i am too. and i think that i've lost a lot of the more meaningful parts. so i'm going to be working on being a better person in the time to come. maybe we all should. why not, after all?
but for now,
goodnight moon.
p.s.
i couldn't find it on youtube, except for in a video of ryan and marissa making out (and i thought that would be awkward), but 'paint the silence' by south is my current favorite song. look it up.
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